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Friday, September 28, 2012

Finding New Nostalgia

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Thursday, September 27, 2012

Minimal Halloween Home Decor



When I got our Halloween decorations out, I was surprised to see that over the years my one bin of Halloween decorations have multiplied to three!  I knew right away that would just not do.  Why?  I have been much more purposeful in minimizing, thanks to the influence of Joshua at Becoming Minimalist.  I love the freedom I am feeling from both getting rid of stuff and refraining from buying more unnecessary stuff.  

I went through the bins and tried to keep things that would add just a touch of festive fall.  I'm not putting lights up outside. I'm not hanging messy spiderwebs. I did not keep every little pumpkin I had. I only kept things that I liked and that I knew would add atmosphere. 


My kids love Halloween, and I know they delight in fun decorations the season brings.  I kept things that I knew would appeal to them, like faces that light up and the sparkle of a pumpkin wrapped in white twinkle lights.


There were a few sentimental things in the bins.  Paper pumpkins my kids made.  I threw those away, but kept these little monster jars we made together a few years ago.   They loved creating these jars and knew exactly which monster was 'theirs.'  They look so cute all aglow in my windowsill.  Click here for how-to.


I did not decorate every room.  I added some decor to the living room and dining room, which is our main living space.  I put a festive candle holder in the bathroom and a pumpkin in my sunroom.  My kitchen got an apple cider scented candle.  I let my girls go through the bins and choose some things they wanted in their rooms.  Just a couple small things like a couple plastic spiders and a rubber mouse, a skeleton head.  Things I didn't want in my main living space, although they keep showing up all over, strategically placed to make Mom scream and jump.

Things I kept:
~monster jars made by little hands that bring the memories
~large lit pumpkin
~a few fake pumpkins and gourds
~festive candle holders to make our evenings at home glowy & fun

Things I got rid of:
~large outdoor decorations that take up too much storage room
~messy cotton spiderwebs that catch all things including dust and leaves
~old Halloween costumes
~old creations made by my girls, especially paper fragile ones (confession...I took a pic of a few for memories sake.  It is hard to get rid of such cute little things!)
~lots of fake fall foliage that used to sit around and collect dust & get in the way of dusting!
~fall twigs for vases...I'm over it.

Last night was the first night with our minimal fall decor out.  I really am starting to believe in this "less is more" thing.  It was so warm and glowy and festive and fun in our home.  The girls loved it and did not comment on missing any of the things that I didn't put out.  Love it!

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Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Coconut Oil as a Moisturizer + 6 More Ways I Use it in my Beauty Routine

I am a HUGE fan of coconut oil, for many reasons, but today I'm just going to focus on why I love coconut oil for my skin.  I have been using it in place of lotion as a body moisturizer for about a year now and I LOVE IT!  

The main reason I started doing this was because I read about how so many body lotions contain parabens and chemicals, and with my cancer history, I am being very purposeful about getting rid of as many toxins in this house and on my body as possible! 

Its been all over the news that they are finding parabens in the breast cancer survivors breast tissue.  My ears perked up with this because I have been in the beauty business for years as a cosmetologist, and parabans seem to be in EVERY beauty product.  I have also met way too many young hairstylists that also battled breast cancer, and it has made us all say "hmm."

Parabens are a group of compounds widely used as antimicrobial preservatives in food, pharmaceutical and cosmetic products, including underarm deodorants. Parabens are absorbed through intact skin and from the gastrointestinal tract and blood.
Measurable concentrations of six different parabens have been identified in biopsy samples from breast tumors (Darbre, 2004). The particular parabens were found in relative concentrations that closely parallel their use in the synthesis of cosmetic products (Rastogi, 1995). Parabens have also been found in almost all urine samples examined from a demographically diverse sample of U.S. adults (Ye, 2006a).
Parabens are estrogen mimickers, with the potency of the agonistic response being related to the chemical structure (Darbre, 2008). They can bind to the cellular estrogen receptor (Routledge, 1998). They also increase the expression of many genes that are usually regulated by estradiol and cause human breast tumor cells (MCF-7 cells) to grow and proliferate in vitro (Byford, 2002; Pugazhendhi, 2007). Nevertheless, parabens as a class do not fully mimic estradiol in the changes in cellular gene expression nor are the effects of all parabens identical (Sadler, 2009).

    "Parabens are estrogen mimickers."  This really made me pause, as my cancer and the majority of breast cancers are fed by hormones.  I had symptoms of estrogen dominance for years and I often wonder if this contributed to my diagnosis.

    As I have been trying to avoid parabens, I have been on a kick of making my own beauty products. There are some wonderful healthy organic body products out there, but they usually end up costing "an arm and a leg," so have been quite motivated to make my own or to figure out a simple, inexpensive & healthy alternative. 

    {even the Stars use it!}

    Here are a few ways I have been using coconut oil on my skin:

    1. I use it to shave.  I wrote about this here.  I can't tell you how wonderful it is to shave with a natural product.  I no longer have bumps, and my pores are nice and small now.  No irritation!  It makes sense...when I read what is in those cans of shaving cream, I am not surprised that my skin reacts with little bumps and irritation!  Especially when one slathers it on, then takes a razor that makes little nicks in the skin for those irritants to penetrate even deeper.  Blech.

    {my fav razor is a Mach 3 Gillette.  I have been using it for years.  Even with all the fancy smancy lady like razors out there, I still prefer my Gillette.  Yes, the refill blades are expensive, but they last forever and I love how close of a shave I get with this razor!  Plus, I have a thing for black and silver...}

    2. I use it as body oil to slather on while still in the shower.  This is my last step of my shower.  Then when I towel off I am super soft and there is no need for body moisturizer.

    3. I use it as a body moisturizer.  On days I do not shower or use it in the shower, I will use it in place of lotion.  Especially on my legs before a hot date with my Todd.  It gives a great glow.

    4.  Just recently, I have been using it as a facial cleanser.  Yep, you read that right.  It is called the "oil cleansing method."  You can read about it here at Sorta Crunchy.  The whole idea of it is that cleansers strip moisture, and then your body over produces oil to make up for it, which leads to breakouts and unbalanced skin. The idea that oil dissolves oil is key with the oil cleaning method.  I have done this for about a week and my face is more clear than it has been for months...I am amazed.  I am also amazed at how moisturized my skin is.   Moisturized skin is plump skin, which helps with the appearance of lines. I will be writing a whole post on this after I have used this method a bit longer.  

    5. I have been using it as an eye make up remover.  I wrote a post on Homemade Eye Makeup Remover, and talked about a recipe that used olive oil.  Well, I am all about simplifying, and since I am already using coconut oil to wash my face, I also started using it to wipe away eye makeup.  It works beautifully.  

    6. I use it as a cuticle oil.  Occasionally, when I have extra on my hands, I will rub it into my cuticles.  No more hangnails!

    7. I use it at a key ingredients in my Homemade Coconut Lime Sugar Scrub.  This is one of my most FAVORITE beauty products.  Love!

    Pretty impressive, huh?  Think of the money I am saving by not buying eye makeup remover, shaving cream, body lotions (lets face it, us women usually have at least 5 different types sitting around!), face moisturizer, cuticle oil & body scrub!  Think of the space I am saving in my home by having one jar of coconut oil instead of 10 bottles of all these products!

    That makes me VERY happy!
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    --I buy a large container on Amazon, I love the Nutiva brand.  It is organic and wonderful.  Trader Joes also started carrying coconut oil.  Yay!

    --Coconut oil is very unique.  It is a solid up to I think 76 degrees, then becomes a liquid.  So depending on the temperature of your house, you will either be scooping the oil if solid, or pouring it if liquid.  

    --I use coconut oil in recipes, like this one, the Best Recipe I Ever Messed Up.  For beauty purposes, I scoop some out and store in a small 8 oz mason jar.  I love the Elite series glass jars.  They have a nice wide mouth and are a cute shape.  I also keep coconut oil in a small 4oz jar to throw into my gym bag.









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    Monday, September 24, 2012

    Anti-Procrastination Tuesday


    Goals This Week:
    ~ All clothes clean and put away 
    ~ All paper work sorted

    Goals Accomplished Last Week:
    ~finish cleaning out craft closet
    ~finish landing area
    ~organize all clothes
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    What I Buy At Trader Joes and Why




    I bought our weeks worth of groceries today and thought I would share what I got with you, and highlight some of our favorite items.  I bought $110.00 worth of groceries.  I do my weekly shopping at Trader Joes, and pick a few items up (like eggs & coconut milk coffee creamer) at my local health food store.  

    Why do I shop at Trader Joes?  Well, you can't beat the prices for their organic fruits and vegetables, especially their frozen vegetables.  Also, foods with the Trader Joes label guarantee:

    ~no artificial flavors, colors, or preservatives
    ~no genetically modified ingredients
    ~no MSG
    ~no added trans fats

    This is a huge deal for me.  It is super important to me that my family eats clean.  I don't want nasty chemical dyes and preservatives in my food.  I have a child who has a tight chest cough/wheeze the minute she eats high fructose corn syrup and anything with yellow food dye in it, so shopping at Trader  Joes makes it easy on me.  I still read labels, but it is much easier at Trader Joes, as their label lists are much shorter and have ingredients that I can pronounce.

    On to what I buy and why.  Let's start with the above picture:

    1. Organic Spinach--I bought 2 bags.  We eat a ton of spinach in our home.  It is one of our main sources of calcium and iron since we do little animal products.  We make a ton of green smoothies & I eat spinach salad often for lunch.

    2. Organic Kale--Trader Joes just started carrying organic Kale.  It is already washed and chopped, which makes it super easy to prepare.  We often make Kale Chips, I put it in MY green smoothies (not my kids, I use spinach for them, kale is a bit too green tasting for their palates.)  I also will sauté' it with garlic for a supper side dish.

    3. Butter Lettuce Mix--I try to have salad every night with dinner.  My girls love this mix.

    4. Organic Pears--These are perfect size for my girls lunch box.  They specifically ask if there is a pear in their lunch.  I'm always happy when I see them for sale!

    5. Organic Kiwi--Another perfect fruit for their lunch boxes or as an afternoon snack.  I cut them in half and send a spoon, they just scoop it out and eat it.  

    6. Bananas--we love bananas in our family, and at Trader Joes, they are 5 for a dollar.  We eat them plain, we spread peanut butter on them, we freeze them and put them in smoothies.  We also love them sliced over cereal or in our Chia Oats.

    7. Sliced Mushrooms--I saute' these with pepper strips and onion, and use them in wraps.  Yum!

    8. Organic Broccoli--I eat this raw as often as possible, & top my salads with it.  I will steam it for a dinner side dish at the end of the week, when the expiration date gets close.

    9. Organic Gold Potatoes--my girls are on a big potato kick.  They have been coming home from school, washing a potato, pricking the skin and popping it in the microwave.  Cracks me up to see them wanting to snack on a vegetable.  Their little palates have changes so much since we started eating a plant strong diet!  

    10. Organic Pink Lady Apples--I buy ONLY organic apples.  I will not compromise on this fruit as it is one of the very highest in pesticides.  Sometimes Trader Joes has a huge selection of organic apples, sometimes they do not.  When they do, the price is great and the apples are delish!

    11. Onions & Peppers--I saute' these fajita style and use in a wrap with beans.  We also eat pepper strips raw.

    12. Organic Baby Carrots--great for snacks and lunches...and our guinea pig!

    13.  Organic Sweet Potatoes--I am a sweet potato fanatic.  I just love them.  I slice them into coins and bake them. I mash them..my fav. I use them in my Acorn Squash and Sweet Potato Soup. I also juice them sometimes.

    14.  Lemons--I use these for my daily lemon water, and for juicing.  I also use them for cleaning and my favorite...add sugar to lemon juice for the most refreshing and yummy tasting facial scrub!

    15. Dried Cranberries--We use these sprinkled on top of oatmeal.  I also mix them with nuts and put in lunch boxes.

    16. Dried Apricots--This is a new favorite of my girls. They think it is like eating fruit snacks, and since I don't buy fruit snacks, it makes me super happy that they feel that way! It is crazy, as I get sugar snacks out of the house, my kids have gradually fallen for fruit because it will be the sweetest thing in the house!  



    Whew...this is gonna be a long post.  Ready for pic number 2?

    1. Potato Chips--I buy these every other week.  Not the most healthy, but my girls love them with sandwiches in their lunch and see it as a super fun treat.  I keep the portions small.

    2. Organic Corn Chips--great snack with salsa, of course!

    3. Oats--we go through a container this size every week.  We love our oats.  We eat them raw like you would a bowl of granola topped with fruit, we eat them cooked, we put them into smoothies, we make Chocolate Peanut Butter Chia Oats with them.  I will make homemade granola bars or our most favorite chocolate bars--The Best Recipe I Ever Messed Up.

    4. Crisp Rice Cereal--I usually buy a more whole grain cereal, but my girls love this and get excited because I don't buy it that often.  It is not high in sugar, but it does lack fiber so I view it as pretty empty calories.  I make it ok by adding whole grain toast and fruit.

    5. Almond Milk--when we switched from cow's milk to almond milk, my girls growled and complained.  Now they love it so much that they have a very hard time every drinking cow's milk.  We use this over cereal or in smoothies.  I use it in recipes in place of milk.  I do wish it was organic.  Trader Joes just started carrying organic coconut milk, so I will have to try that.

    6. Organic Tomatillo & Roasted Yellow Chili Salsa--I have tried every salsa Trader Joes carries, and this is by far the best.  Great flavor.

    7. Earth Balance--we have used this in place of butter since eating more plant based.  I love that you can melt it and bake with it.

    8. Shredded Cheese--I don't buy it often, but we are having chili this week.  I don't eat dairy, but my girls will like a sprinkling on their chili.  They also make cheese tacos as a quick afternoon snack. I do appreciate that all of Trader Joes cheeses have a label on them that announce that they use milk from cows NOT treated with Rsbt. 

    9. Clif Bars--a treat.  This box will supply an afternoon snack for my girls for 4 days (12 bars in a box). I love how easy it is to just throw a bar at them when they get home from school.  These are high protein and high fiber. 

    10. Hummus--I am on a huge hummus kick.  I have been using a big blog of it on my salads instead of salad dressing...so good!  I also love it on my Hummus Sandwich Heaven & to dip vegetables.



    You still with me??  3rd pic...here we go:

    1. Strawberry Nutrigrain Bars--very convenient for lunch boxes.  These are another item that I don't buy often and are considered a treat.  They are quite processed and have quite a bit of sugar.  Comparing them to another store brand of these type of bars, they really are not so bad!

    2. Vegetable Nests--I will tell you more about these below, but they are really yummy.  You can heat them up in the oven and eat them according to the package, but I like to get creative with it.  My plan is to bake them, then chop them up and add beans, using it as a topping for brown rice.  Easy and convenient meal.  These have amazing flavor and come with a yummy Asian dipping sauce.  Go easy on the sauce...it is high sodium.

    3. Mini Chicken Tacos--A treat my girls love.  Not super healthy.  

    4.Steelcut Oats--These frozen pucks of steel cut oats are my most favorite breakfast.  I add blueberries or raspberries on top and I am in breakfast heaven.  I sometimes make my own steel cut oat frozen pucks, but decided to be lazy.  These sell for 1.69 for 2 large frozen pucks.  I can share one with one of my girls and still get full.

    5. 100% Whole Wheat Bread--THIS IS NOT FROM TRADER JOES.  I have had a hard time finding a bread that we all love from Trader Joes.  I have a local bakery we use often, this time I bought Oroweat.

    6. Sweet Apple Chicken Sausage--the only meat product I bought for the week, other than the chicken tacos.  We slice this up and sauté' it, then it it with eggs & toast for a breakfast dinner.  I talk more about this product below.

    7. Creamy Organic Peanut Butter with Sea Salt--a staple in our home.  I use it on sandwiches, smear banana with it, use it in chia oats and in smoothies.

    8.  Organic Strawberry Jelly--great on toast, sandwiches & a dab twirled into oatmeal is yummy!  I will talk more about this product below.


    I took these photos to show you the Trader Joes difference.  The ingredients in the salsa are all whole, recognizable ingredients.  No sugars added.  No preservatives. Love it!
    The jelly has organic grape juice concentrate in it.  It still is considered sugar, but SO MUCH BETTER than high fructose corn syrup.  Click here to read more about why I don't like HFCS.


    Look at the ingredients of this crispy little birds nests!  Onion, carrot, kale are the first 3 ingredients.  Yes, they have tempura batter and oil, but for a processed snack that tastes good and is convenient...I'll take it.

    We made it to the end of this very long post.  Thanks for sticking with me...I hope this was helpful.

    This is just a taste of the things we love and buy at Trader Joes.  I have not written posts about it because I realize not everyone lives near a TJ's, but I hope some of the tips given are helpful despite that.  

    Let me know in the comments if you want to see more Trader Joe posts at New Nostalgia!  Also, share your favorite products with me if you are a TJ's fan.




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    Sunday, September 23, 2012

    Being Purposeful In Meeting With A Mentor


    Being Purposeful In Meeting With Mentor – Purposeful Living


    These posts written by Todd (Amy’s husband) are designed to model a system of purposeful living.  At least once a month, he spends time setting meaningful goals around one of seventeen core priorities.

    If you missed it, consider reading the foundation post – Purposeful Living #1.


    Correct Priority
    Priority #3 – Social Health – Friends–Having A Mentor 

    Goal Setting & Reflection Date
    Sunday, April 8

    Goal
    Invest in my spiritual, social, and emotional health by meeting once a month with individuals who play a mentoring role in my life.  

    Goal Status
    In Progress

    Thoughts
    I am an introvert.  A severe introvert.  And I struggle a great deal in relationships.  I do well with my wife and with my children, but beyond that I don’t do well.  Given the choice between time with people or time to myself, I prefer to be by myself.   


    But I have decided this month that this needs to change.  I have no intentions on becoming the life of the party, but there are a few key relationships that need to be shored up in my life.  

    Starting with my mentors.      

    There are currently two men who play a mentoring role in my life.  And I haven’t met with either of them since December.  That is pathetic.  

    By not prioritizing my time to meet with them I believe I am putting my marriage and my family in unnecessary risk.  

    On the first Sunday of every month (beginning this month) I will be purposeful about contacting and setting up a time to meet with one of my mentors.  

    Towards the end of the year I will provide an update on how successful I have (or haven’t) been in setting up these meetings.  And if I can any insight or wisdom during this time that seems appropriate to share I’ll do that as well.  

    --Todd

    Foundation Post
    Build Your To-Do List Around Correct Priorities – Purposeful Living #1

    Outline Of All Purposeful Living Posts

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    Saturday, September 22, 2012

    Unquenchable Love




    I keep a list of song videos that I love and lift my head and touch my heart.
    This is one that gives me chills every time I hear it. 
     It moves me. Especially at 3:54.

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    Friday, September 21, 2012

    11 Delicious Ways To Eat Squash



    Brown Sugar Acorn Squash


    How To Peel, Cut & Bake All Types Of Squash


    Creamy Acorn Squash Soup


    Squash Mac N Cheese


    Spaghetti Squash


    Squash and Potato Mash


    Curried Butternut Squash Soup



    Butternut Squash Chips


    Butternut Squash Cake w/ Vanilla Spiced Icing





    Squash Butter


















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    Thursday, September 20, 2012

    School Lunch Smoothies


    I am constantly trying to figure out how to get fruits and veggies into my kiddos in ways that they get excited about.  School Lunch Smoothies are a great way to do just that!  My girls get so excited about these, and like them so much that I make lots of extras for them to grab a quick after- school snack from the freezer.  

    {my favorite, reasonably priced blender-Oster 6 cup, glass blender}

    I linked some smoothie recipes below, but honestly, I just throw in whatever frozen fruit we have in our freezer.  I always include banana or peach, each give a nice thick base for the smoothie.  I try to add greens whenever possible, a couple big handfuls will do.  Usually it is spinach, as it is the most mild tasting green.  These smoothies had one frozen banana, about a cup each of frozen blueberries, pineapple & strawberries, and spinach.

    I then add almond milk and blend until desired consistency.  I never measure.  I just add milk until I see a cortex in the middle, as in the picture below.  That is when you know you have a great smoothie consistency.  Sometimes I add protein powder (love this one by Plant Fusion), sometimes I add chia, sometimes I add hemp seed or oats.  Or not.  Smoothies are very forgiving.


    The above smoothie is a pretty safe purple color. I usually don't send my go-to green smoothie to school with my girls.  We drink it at home as an afternoon snack instead.  My girls don't really enjoy the attention they get at school when drinking green, kids have quite the reactions to green smoothies!  Despite the color, my girls love how they taste.  Click Here for our Everyday Green Smoothie recipe.  


    {Ball Plastic Containers}

    I only use plastic containers for our lunch boxes. (Click here to see what lunch box and containers we use.)  Everything else I store in glass ball jars.  These plastic containers from Ball are really, REALLY convenient and the perfect size.  The have screw on lids to prevent spilling, and the cups stack into each other so nicely, which is great for the freezer.

    They thaw just enough by lunch time into the perfect cold smoothie consistency.  Make sure to pack a straw!



    {Ziplock Smoothie Packets for the Freezer}

    These are awesome timesavers.  If all your smoothie cups are full of frozen smoothie, just divide the fruit into baggies and they will be ready for you when you are!


    {My Smoothie Boards at Pinterest}
    I've started a smoothie Pinterest board for awesome smoothie inspiration!  How about you? Do you have any favorites to share?



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