I was not going to list the gifts today. I just was not feeling it. I felt it would have been forced after a morning of feeling anxious about the smallest things, and impatient with my girls who are all home from school today --this sentence was paused to work through yet another little girls squabbling drama--sigh. Things feel off kilter here in our home this morning, and my response is not one of patience.
I was scrolling through facebook and came upon Ann Voskamps post, titled "What's The Answer To Anxiety?" I smiled before I even read it, knowing it would be just what I needed to find my thanks and joy today. It was.
Here is my practicing of thanks, despite emotions that take time to catch up with what I know to be true.
I have so much to be thankful for.
I feel the knot in my stomach already starting to unravel. I feel my head slowly lift. I am grateful.
~the fact that our thanks is accepted by God despite feet dragging
~my home. It's "up keep" triggered some of my anxiety today. I'm starting to see how silly that is.
~my precious girls. The privilege of being their mom and teacher.
~coffee and oatmeal with dried cranberries
~a friends determination to keep making great choices. The inspiration that brings to me.
~energy and health.
~my husband. His ability to prioritize. His decision long ago to put God and family first.
~meeting writers that live in my own city through facebook! A lunch date set with 6 of them. Can't wait!
~music. How it calms. How it makes me move. How it causes me to look up.
~NO DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS in the month of January. First time I can say that since diagnosis. Oh--other than a dentist appointment. My dentist is my bro-in-law, and he rocks so that doesn't count.
~realizing that I do not think of death or cancer on a daily basis anymore. Healing that time brings.
~a growing community of readers on Facebook. The ease of communication with precious people who support my words. Seeing their faces in their profile pics. I LOVE it! Come join us?